Lydia Liao!

Future plans

2011-12-29T11:44:00.000-08:00

My inability to fall into slumber has driven me to convene some thoughts into this space. Haven't amalgamated my thoughts in a long while, having been simply skimming through life without much thought.

I am alas, burdened to align the bearing of my life. After considering various options, I've decided to pursue my education in Singapore, because of a mishmash of several reasons: The most important being that I have come to realize that I'm not ready for independence. Ruefully, the washing machine baffles me and I still can't whip a proper meal that does not constitute of something instant-made. On top of that, I know how ill disciplined I am and how uncontrollable I would be. Last but not least, I've grown to love my mother so much more I can't detach myself from her.

She's an unmatched mother- impeccable in housework, an exceptionally good listener and bearing a heart of gold. More often than not, kudos to the fact that I'm the baby of the family, I'm spoilt by her. I would never tolerate a daughter like myself, who galvanises and spends a large deal of time splurging on the unecessities of life. I love my mother so much its rather inexpressible. :')

Back to the topic, I've decided to enrol into University of Buffalo to do a course in Communications. I really seek to excel after having wasted so much time slothing around. And I deeply appreciate my family's unrelentless support. I would never be this Lydia without them. :) May all go well with you too!

A year later.

2011-09-14T01:35:00.000-07:00

We can catch this by the tail in time,
as the ship sets sail we're all in flight;
and we'll barrel past these stars tonight.
- Runaway World by Making April

Last September was an arduous and distressing month that left me muddled for a year after. If asked to pinpoint a specific time that my life went downhill, it would've been this time last year. Been through an awful period time of my life from then till now, but as G.A puts it, "I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke."

This September has been hectic and rather insane, with work scheduled one day after another. Although slightly regretful for making too many commitments and depriving myself of a social life, I feel much better on a whole. Probably the best thing that happened to since I've started work was to take an off day from work yesterday to laze around, catch a movie and play mahjong. Obviously, there are repercussions and aftermath of such an enjoyable day-- my eyelids feel compelled to stay close as I struggled to peel myself off bed, my feet felt heavier with each step to work, and my mind was drifting everywhere else while I was working. On the bright(er) side, my weekend getaway on a cruise is just a week away! (Not to mention that its FOC hehehehe).

Haven't been here in awhile, for those who still read this, have a smurfulous & smurfastic week ahead!

La la la-la la la, sing a happy song.
La la la-la la la, smurf your whole day long.

2011-09-06T00:44:00.000-07:00

2011-05-20T00:43:00.001-07:00

I came to this space, to realize that I can neither convene my thoughts nor systematize my words when I am void of emotions.

2011-04-22T12:53:00.000-07:00

If only there could be some form of adamantine armor or shield that would bulwark me from any form of rue & sorrow. I've been resolute in the fact that even if things don't go the way you expect for it to be, it's for the best & that you just have to live with it. At least you can clout your mind with what you choose to believe in, and be happy about it. There's a goulash of thoughts within me, & I can't set up a barricade to filter them. It's just too big a loss to know that you've spent so much time on a person to find that alas, he/she is nothing but a stranger. & in all that you've given and loved, you've done it all alone.

This is the first & last time I'd blog with such a heavy heart. I'm Lydia Liao, & optimism is my strength.

Friends.

2011-03-13T13:44:00.000-07:00

It is more difficult to forgive the ones you love. The ones you thought you knew inside out, crystal-ball their movements and hear their tacit thoughts. I assumed that the brainwork & thoughts planted in my brain would wither, but they flowered instead.

This is when forgiveness has to come. Knock in, will you?

2011-03-10T11:23:00.001-08:00

"People keep telling me that I fall in love too easily- that I should protect my heart, that I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve… I fall in love at least 20 times a day. I fall in love with the sky and the sun and the flowers and my children. I fall in love with smiles, with music on the radio and with french fries and Dr. Pepper. I fall in love with the sound of laughter, blue jeans, accents… Sometimes I fall in love with complete strangers, especially the ones holding hands and kissing in public. The ones who aren’t afraid to be in love with the idea of being in love either… I don’t mind the pain of unrequited love so much, because I think they’re wrong. Love looks good on me."
— Natalie Anne Erlanson

I think I've been too cynical about things. I always thought I'd be more of a fighter at things- to hold, be brave and risk for the worth of things. I feel like I've lived a life of nothingness, & I feel like doing so much more.

Today, I finally got around to doing stuff- sent out resumes & sent my application for volunteer at the Singapore Children’s Society. I don't want to settle at being complacent with life. As it always goes, "there's gotta be more to life" aye?

On a side note, I really am beginning to enjoy Dair. :)

V-day

2011-02-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

More than just a commercial success with couples aplenty dining together, my Valentine's day was spent with people I truly love :)

P.S: The post below was by Mujia Jiang, who conveniently let herself into my space with my predictable password. :D

2011-02-05T08:00:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday dumb ♥

Hehehehehehehehehehehe.

2011-01-16T09:09:00.001-08:00

If you asked me in January 2010 where I would see myself a year later, I can assure you that this wasn't it. The state that I am in, the way I live my life is nothing like how I'd envisioned myself.

Sha & Tab

2011-01-03T09:52:00.000-08:00

♥

My mother was making an unnecessary din about how reliant I am on everybody, simply because Tab & Sha brought me food (again). But then there they are, people who I can literally count on for a lifetime. People who would ever readily jump in at the site of danger or downfall, to lift and put me back on my feet.

The beauty of friendship is that it teaches sacrifices and forgiveness.

So, thank you in advance for helping me out with my projects tomorrow. :)
Love you two deep deep, muacks muacks!

J

2011-01-02T10:22:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday J.
It's been so long since I've mentioned you in this space. Remember how we used to blog only about & for each other as if no one else was reading?

It's unbelievable how a twist of fate brought us together. We've known each other for literally umpteen years since we were 12, I can't believe it actually took us so long to really discover each other.

It was a very trying time for us back in 2007, & although I am angst for all the valuable time that was robbed of us when we just started, I can never imagine us without that phase. Our sole mode of communication were through letters, & I remember hovering by my post box to check if there were any letters from you. I would go to your house to have dinner with your mother, to accompany her in place of you. I would walk into your room and run my fingers through your sheets and stuff lest you diminish in my memory.

In the blink of an eye, you were back with me, & gradually we've spent 3 years+ together. 3 years of being so awfully dependent on you. I'd make you run errands for me, accompany me for the most boring events and help me with my work. We'd spend every consecutive day together, & all our nights on the phone.

We mapped out our future together with a house in Punggol, three lovely children (although we have differing views on the gender) and our lives living under one roof. For a very long time, that wasn't just a vision to me- it was reality that would be enfolding in time to come.

But life always has a way of mocking the naive, and a way to rouse the dreamers. I learned that there wasn't just you & me. I started to see other people- friends & family that I have neglected. I became conscious that my dependency on you was so overwhelming that I feared being alone. I realized that as I have grown on you, I lacked my individuality.

& so while many cannot comprehend why we are not together, I know you'll completely understand why I need this time alone and away from you.
& while I know your patience is wearing thin, I embrace whatever comes along. I do hope that we both figure out our lives, and find a spring of happiness that is not temporary. Although this may mean that in the course of all these that we may lose the privilege of being exclusive to each other.

But I don't see the end of us, but the start of a much deeper relationship. Because you know me like none other, and you understand my struggles. You'll always be a very good friend despite your beliefs that relationships don't last beyond a breakup.

Lastly, I would like to thank everyone who has been there for me when 2010 was so tough & exhausting for me, especially to those whom I constantly poured my soul out to- Bestie, Jerusha, Mujia, Jessica & my Liaos. I can never thank you all enough.
I'm Lydia Liao, & being optimistic has always been my forte. Writing this out is really such a relief. :)

May your 2011 be filled with laughter, joy & crazy moments.

2010-12-28T23:32:00.000-08:00

29thDecember 2010.
It's finally sinking into me that this year is ending. The year end always calls for a time of intense reflection, and I've always had immense joy when I reflect back. But this year was so bad. I don't believe that by stepping into a new year that I would have a rag-to-riches story, or receive magical intervention to become a better person altogether.

I had a few resolutions for 2011, but I think I'd scrape them all away. I don't want to spend my waking hours sanctioned by routines and plans that I have senselessly set knowing that I'm bound to fail. Resolutions are too fleeting- I can foresee that in less than a month I would have shed my reformation to the winds.

These were my Resolutions I made for 2010. Scorn, laugh, mock. I didn't fulfill a single one of the below.

Resolutions 2010
1. Spend more time with my mother!
Go for dinner with her after school (haven't done that in ages!)
Go for breakfast with her on Saturday morning @ JC at least once a month

2. Less cabs!
Try to go home before the train and bus services run out, cannot take midnight cabs more than once a week, seriouslyyy!
Wake up earlier and seriously stop oversleeping

3. Do not skip school more than once a fortnight
I know it's impossible for me not to skip school, I mean there are just days you just can't drag yourself to school?! & then there are days where school has to be skipped to rush projects & more days where Orchard calls...

4. Show more love!
Buy more random gifts for my family & friends

5. Write to Jerusha Ho & Joanne Lee
I always give up writing when life gets so busy? But I really want to write! Once a month at the very least?

If only there were fairy godmothers, a genie in a lamp, or someone as wise as Solomon.

2010-12-25T22:37:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas! :)

Despite this Christmas not being a significantly meaningful one for me, it was indeed a joyful & happy zappy one. Thank you all you lovelies for the gifts & cards, & I hope you all like what I have prepared for you too!

Happy Boxing day! :)

Christmases

2010-12-19T07:29:00.000-08:00

Stuck at home the entire day cause of diarrhea. Brilliant way to spend my precious holidays :(
& so while writing Christmas cards, I spent today pondering on what I've been doing for my past 3 Christmases, & how this year's Christmas would be.

2007: House party @ Ian's - Carolling @ ECP - Town with Hongwee - Movie with church friends

2008: Christmas Service in church where we put up a play (Can't remember what I did that year thereafter)

2009: Christmas Service in church - House party @ T's - Attempt to get into Rebel - Jasper's house - House party @ D's - Girls came over to my place

I see the need to reconnect. & I thank those who have bothered to reach out to me.
I'll be a better friend.

BOREDDDD!

2010-12-05T21:14:00.000-08:00

I'M BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED.
I can't study, can't study, can't study.
I'm distracted, distracted, distracted, distracted.

That's how alliteration works, right?
Hope you got my point.

Rebel-Zirca turns 2!

2010-11-29T07:44:00.000-08:00

Rebel-Zirca turned 2 on Friday!

We are the brotherhood of two, Zirca the glamorous to be envied and Rebel parallel to the streets of the grim core. Rising from the depths of the past, we, the undefeated, are the new DISCO generation.
Your antiphon to today’s sordid hipsters of wasted asian youths and their frenetic search for this certain ELECTRIC sensation and life’s VENDETTA,

The only people for us are ‘the MAD ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, ...mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones that never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars’.

- Zirca & Rebel

& as usual and ever so predictably,

Burn, burn, burnt.

2010-11-23T23:19:00.000-08:00

Wet Wednesday.
I see a thunderstorm looming, and I wish I could hocus pocus, mumbo jumbo the rain away. Had such a good night's sleep that I practically snoozed through my umpteen alarms. & horrors of horrors, when I woke up it was already past noon. It wouldn't have been such a monstrosity if there wasn't SMIT report due tomorrow. Am only permitting myself a 10 minute interlude before I do the touch-ups and march off to school! Need to extract and eradicate whatever lazy bone is within me.

Can't wait for this dreadful week to be over. In an austere manner, I see a grave need to improve my attendance in school. I have proved myself a clock watcher and laggard in tutorials where I practically shift my gaze only from my laptop screen to the clock, and back again. My mind is literally blank except for moments where Gossip Girl pops in. I am not exaggerating when I say scenes from "The Witches of Bushwick" are on constant replay. One of the best episodes ever, in my opinion.

Have to run off now. I hope I meet a Chuck Bass-like guy later in the rain who will valiantly shield me from the storm and offer me a ride in his limo. :) AHHHHHHHHHH.

2010-11-21T22:45:00.000-08:00

3 months later I'm still at equilibrium; the scale's tipping to neither side. Sick of the pointless debates and futile arguments with myself. I want to something positively right and be happy about it.

Blair: You are Serena van der Woodsen. You deserve a guy who would move mountains just to be with you if he had to.

Serena: … and you’re Blair Waldorf. Fortitude is your talent. Stay strong.

TGIGGM- Thank God It's Gossip Girl Monday.
Distractions, anytime.

2010-11-15T08:17:00.000-08:00

"So many roads, so many detours. So many choices, so many mistakes. As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going."
- Sex and the City

Please spare me all thoughts & grant me a good night's sleep today.

2010-11-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

Projects are a form of negative reinforcement, robbing away my leisure time. & damn, it's only week 3.

I'm increasingly appalled by own actions and words, and my inability to rein & repress my temper. I no longer steer my thoughts when my head clouts with fury, can't believe the tactlessness of the words I spew. Why I like that? :(

Tomorrow I'll be a better person, ok?

Back to school!

2010-10-21T08:10:00.000-07:00

Today is Sunday, which only means that tomorrow is Monday. :(
Lessons are from 8am - 5pm, which is the most dreadful day in the week ever. First presentation due in two week's time. Have to conduct a workshop on writing Cover Letters for an hour and a half. What on earth is that?! :(

Shall post some pictures to make myself happier.

Lovely girls from DTRM 07! :)

Class picture! :)

Should take more pictures since it's the final semester. Shall be the dutiful me once again!

2010-10-15T00:54:00.000-07:00

Hello earthlings, hope you have a jolly filled stomach unlike the poor starving me. :(
School beckons, and Monday marks my return to campus for my final semester. I can't imagine studying all over again, and I abhor the thought of having to wake up in the early morning.
With my hopeless GPA, I give myself zero for motivation.

Monday: 8am - 5pm
Tuesday: 12pm - 5pm
Wednesday: 9am - 3pm
Thursday: 10am - 12pm
Friday: 10am - 12pm

I foresee warning letters coming my way again.

Okay! Just transferred pictures from my camera over. Eye treat! Pictures from Social Night.

My wonderful awesome primary school friends <3

Wilson!

As you can see, the whole time I was just following Wilson around & trying to look busy by taking pictures.

Junyang & Jermaine!

Primary school track team! (with extra Jermaine who insisted on being in the picture)

The event turned out to be much better that I had expected (I thought the worst out of it). Met so many primary school friends, it was like a massive ATS gathering.

Best of all, I enjoyed the company of Jermaine & Zhiwei!

"Eh hurry let's look very tight!"

2010-10-06T13:48:00.000-07:00

Because we are both much more alike than we are aware.

Hairspray

2010-10-03T23:15:00.000-07:00

Thinking of doing something to my unkempt hair. Bangs again?
I always fantasize and keep thinking of having bangs cause when I was a little girl I had them, and I looked so cute & innocent!

But I honestly know bangs now are too cutesy for me, just like when I had a Hello Kitty Iphone cover everybody just massive suan me :( I no cutesy girl image cause I am loud like a siren & unglam like that, sigh.

Why like that?

2010-10-01T11:28:00.000-07:00

BEAST: I let her go.
COGSWORTH: You what? How could you do that?
BEAST: I had to.
COGSWORTH: Yes, but why?
BEAST: Because I love her.

Countdown.

2010-09-30T04:20:00.000-07:00

Meredith Grey: Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.

18 more days before school starts. Gonna have to come up with 101 ways to enjoy myself before returning to the torture chambers and being slaves to endless projects and books.

So, yesterday was Ladies Night. Drank like a hippopotamus, and suffered the aftermath of my impulsion. I now do not understand the concept behind 'drinking away one's sorrow', cause in my case the sorrow heightens to its peak when I drink.

Today I feel out of sorts, and I keep having the runs. Did nothing productive today at all. Grrrr.
Tomorrow I'd be heading to town for lunch with an ex-colleague, then over to Zhiwei's before meeting Yuzhi for dinner. Awesomezzzz!

Mmmm, should I invest in a Fisheye Cam?

A better day already

2010-09-28T13:15:00.001-07:00

Dan: Who you are is who you are. We're liars. We're thieves. We're addicts. We take our happiness for granted until we hurt ourselves or someone else. We hold grudges. And when faced with our mistakes, we reinvent the past. We reinvent ourselves. At least we try. We're prideful, and we're lustful, and we're incredibly flawed. And eventually, our flaws catch up to us.

Not a believer of wallowing in self pity and indulging in sorrow. I promised myself that tomorrow will be a better day, and I am making it happen. Gonna wake up earlier to meet Best in town for lunch + shopping, and thereafter the girls for dinner + Rebel.

As most of you would have already known, I went to BKK twice this month alone. Quite a shock to my parents whom I had conveniently forgotten to inform. With all the barang barang I brought back, along with my vivid description of the scrumptuous food, it would be hello to the land of smiles again in December with my mother.

Anw, pictures of the trip with VT. Most of the precious photos are actually with her- which means it'll be stuck in her camera as usual.

Back to watching Glee Season 2! :)
Watching all my dramas are enough to keep me busy bee! Gossip Girl, Vampire Diaries, Glee, Nikita, 90210. Not to forget all the movies I have in mind. I'm gonna stay a couch potato!

Vacant and hollow.

2010-09-26T10:47:00.000-07:00

It's the acceptance of the differences that are contrary to our beliefs, it's the forgiveness of faults that depreciates our soul. We've been gritting our teeth to carve our way through; oblivious and blind to the signs and signals that would lead us to a dead-end. There are no real solutions, no absolute verdicts, and all I've been doing is driving in circles.

I have been fine for the past few days, but I hate that when I'm all alone the thoughts catch up with me- and I can no longer outrun it. I totally detest this state that I've estranged myself in. I wish I could be more firm and affirmative in my decisions.

And what's left of me tonight is a vacant heart coupled with a hollow head.

"Just keep swimming"

2010-09-02T08:45:00.000-07:00

In a day's time I'd be on my route to financial bankruptcy.
I detest the idea of idling my month away, but even more so the idea of bailing out my weary soul. Given my slothful nature, it's not hard to picture the rest of the month ahead.
I wouldn't have my freedom abdicated--- so soon.

Now that internship's over, I thought I'd be in the 'party all day & drink all night' mood. (Just a metaphor btw, I don't really want to drink all night) But I feel so drenched in fatigue that I probably need to recuperate first by giving myself 10 days worth of sleep.

It's BKK this weekend, and I'm gonna really throw away all my fumbled thoughts and simply relax. Let all the troubles and worries flow in thereafter; I really deserve a break after all these.

May laughter & joy follow where ever you go.

Sharkbait!

2010-08-30T05:29:00.000-07:00

Why so cute!

4 more days to end on internship! Time to scout around for part-time jobs that do not require me jolting myself up in the wee hours of the morning. Anybody that has any suggestions or some sort please do help me! I'd be eternally grateful. :)

I feel like eating Skittles.

Moustacha!

2010-08-27T21:50:00.000-07:00

I know my keen sense of humour can be a little unbelievable at times, but the above picture really sent me roaring with laughter. Oww, tummy hurts from all that laughing. (Thankfully I'm alone at home or I'll be deemed insane)

These few weeks have been pretty good and smooth-sailing, and my internship is officially ending next week! I need to go back to being a teenager- hate it that I'm practically confined to my house every single weekday because of work commitments.
Plus I have a dozen of things I've set for myself to do - need to get my exercise back in routine, need to grab the following books:
1. Swimming by Joanna Hershon
2. The Rest of her Life by Laura Moriart
3. Body Surfing by Anita Shreve
4. While my sister sleeps - Barbara Delinsky
5. Firefly Lane - Kristin Hannah;

have to get my hair dyed, grab some new clothes from anywhere & get a new wallet!

Lincoln Road Lisa @ Kate Spade

or

Jane Street Lisa @ Kate Spade

I think I shall go ahead & do a few of the above today.
I've been feeling out of sorts of late, and I think I need some therapy to realign myself.

Till then!

Girls, girls, girls

2010-08-12T08:54:00.000-07:00

Quoting Jessica, "I can't believe I've known you my whole teen life- 13 to 19!"
Such a teenage drama queen she is. :)

The picture below marks our first time @ a club together. Rebel - Zirca - Lunar. Was awesome with the free drinks that got Manprit high- totally a sight to behold. I've never seen a person who is so easily induced by alcohol.

& my favourite picture of all. (bet Jessica & Manprit will kill me when they see this)

Farewell!
Just wanted to type something into this space. My thoughts can't run smoothly when I'm happy zappy. :D

You don't let love collapse.

2010-08-03T08:53:00.000-07:00

I've always been blind and oblivious to those who treat me with sincerity, while returning reciprocal smiles & dates with others who don't. I am seemingly unable to differentiate the callous & the unpretentious.
I always believe in the best of a person, & even if proven otherwise, I'd cook up reasons to justify their actions to assure myself that there is still some right in the wrong. As much as my crazy self proves otherwise, I spend a lot of nights in pensive reflection about how I should live, and perhaps to a certain extent, brainwashing myself to believe in things I think I should.

As cliche as it seems, maybe (just maybe) it's about time to face the ugly truth.
The night has this peculiar effect on me, I swear.

I don't want to forget.

2010-08-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

31 more days to end of internship! & I think I will actually miss the place after all.
So used to peeling my eyes open in the morning & tuning in to 98.7 for AM Jam to perk me up.
So used to my desk at the corner of the office where I nestle and stay rooted on to work on the tasks given.
So used to the lunch venues all around- scouting for cheap lunches to save that few pennies.
& colleagues that shout "Liao Liao", startling me & making my jump in my seat.

That aside, I've already have my whole week planned out! Can't wait for Tuesday to go shopping with J, Wednesday to meet Jess & MJ, Thursday to meet Tab & Saturday for picnic with the girls! :) Always like to plan my things out a whole week in advance- I shun impromptu activities.

Tomorrow MUST be a better day.

2010-06-30T06:53:00.000-07:00

Not sure when you stop thinking dandelions are beautiful, but figures it's somewhere around the time you get a job. -Story of the Day

Trebuchet is the font I use to write e-mails to various agents.
Arial is the font a particular agent used today to tell me that the rates I quoted were atrociously high.
Trebuchet is the font I used to politely reply that I would look into ways to cut costs for his package tour.
Arial in italics was his reply that I did nothing to lower the rates, that I am crazy for quoting him such rates, & that he's wasting his time on me.
Trebuchet in bold was filled with all sorts of vulgarities I could possibly come up with.

But alas, I did not have the guts to hit "Send".

Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow will be a better day.

One liner.

2010-06-27T09:27:00.001-07:00

Twitter takes away the need for this space.
Mmmmm.

Colours of the Night

2010-06-16T09:37:00.000-07:00

When the moon, after covering herself with darkness as in sorrow, at last throws off the garments of her widowhood, she does not at once expose herself impudently to the public gaze; but for a time remains veiled in a transparent cloud, till she gradually acquires courage to endure the looks and admiration of beholders.
~ Augustus William Hare and Julius Charles Hare, "Guesses of Truth by Two Brothers

The night sky may be dark, but I've always felt the night to be bring more colours than the day. A pity though, work has robbed me of the colours of my night. I am just another one of those pitiful souls who drag their feet to work day after day.

I actually do not dread work much, I dread the process of getting to work. To battle against the insides of my grainy eyelids, to fight with my soul so deprived of sleep. That's the hardest part of the day to get by, where it feels so easy to throw in the towel and just plunge back into bed.
Workload wise, it's pretty much managable and fine. Nothing distressing, I must admit.

Can't wait for the weekends, to clear away the rust and dust of the week.
I need some new excitement.

House Rules

2010-06-15T08:03:00.000-07:00

Simon loved the careful, deliberate nature of books. Like a man's second wife going missing after his first wife's second wife going missing after his first wife's been murdered. When an author took the time and trouble to choose exactly the right words and arrange them in the right order, there was a possibility of genuine communication taking place, the thoughtful writer reaching the thoughtful reader. The opposite of what happened when two people opened their mouths and simply let their half-formed, incoherent thoughts spill out.
"Little Face" by Sophie Hannah

Jodi Picoult's latest novel, House Rules is out! :)
Rushed straight to the bookstore to grab it, needed to add it to my collection so badly. I've got every novel of hers, she's the only author I'm willing to splurge on. The library is usually enough to satisfy my reading craves. :)

Just reading the synopsis of House Rules makes me burn with excitement and eagerness to finish the book. Watch the trailer here!

Am gonna start reading it now! :)
Go grab your copy!

Conformist.

2010-06-08T09:23:00.000-07:00

WOW full day maintenance today. :( Which explains why I am updating.
I wanna be level 50 by this week! Need to be 80 soon so I can do raids & kill any alliance.
For the Horde!!

Anw, this was @ Rebel on Sat.
All the guys were in blazers. Act?

Girls! :)

Seriously love Lam's expressions. Forever classic.

That night the police came for a random club size check. All the guys were outside, and couldn't re-enter so only the girls were left at the table. In the spate of confusion, we thought we couldn't re-enter for the night & we just started gulping down all the cups leftover on the table.

Why so comical?

I'm damn sad it's already 12.40AM. :(
Need to sleep cause there's work tomorrow. I could have been playing "Bear" with them all @ Esplanade now... but I'm at home cause of work tomorrow.
WORK!

Ever After!

2010-05-27T22:44:00.000-07:00

Feels good to be home on a Friday!
Am actually heading out soon, although I very much feel like being a hermit and stay at home. But that's just not the way to spend a holiday aye?

Watched Shrek Ever After last Saturday, which was pretty much a disappointment. The plot seemed to be a mimicry of so many past movies, - whereby the protagonist wishes that he could relive his past glories.

Although, yes, the first of the Shrek quadrilogy may be generic to fairytales- typically a beast saving an ungrateful princess, it managed to invoke so much laughter in me that I'm sure the corners of my lips were lengthened. Shrek Ever After pales very much in comparison.

Marking the end of the Shrek saga, the fond memories of the the first two films have been overidden with the downfall of the third & fouth. No more of those green ogre ears.

I'm not a critic, and the above are just my two cents worth.

Anyway, now I can't wait to watch The Last Song. :D

Pictures from that night!
Too many photos that I had to make collages which look kinda distorted. Oops.

@_Jeline & @darylteo

@AlmightyHweeling & @fatahlam

& the gay couple @chuckybass & @kaysome

Twitter addict?

Then the guys just couldn't stop pestering the kind photographer (me) for a photoshoot. Trying to get like those HK gangsters.

My fav of the lot :)

Jia trying out the "cigarette" effect" which honestly didn't turn out too bad.

& finally, the girls. :)

Working from Mon-Fri and being in office wear makes me so sick of dresses.
I'm going to buy more shorts & teeshirts later. I just want to be casual!

My mother just came in and said "Eh your friends all Buddhist ah?"
????
"All go temple so you haven't go out yet?"

#$%$%^&*_+(!@#^

Ironman VS War Machines

2010-05-01T02:37:00.000-07:00

Jasper's Birthday.

Amazingly, my 3rd year of celebrating Jasper's birthday. That's how time fleets so stealthily, like a dandelion grazing in the wind - so unnoticed. I can remember writing him a card for his 17th birthday which I impetuously threw away cause J told me he was not a very sentimental man, who would probably hold the card as a weapon of joke against me. Ran out of ideas for gift and even wanted to resort to getting him a pack of cigarettes for his birthday, but then again I'm not one to encourage such unhealthy habits.

The 17 of us went for Iron Man 2, and thereafter it was hell for my ears when they tried to mimic the characters. It was a mediocre show, and I managed to stay awake for the entire time.
When I watched Iron Man 1 with them 2-3 years ago I slept so soundly throughout.

The night saw us at Dome, with the guys playing DOTA while the girls went for a heartwarming talk at Macs. Pouring out of vexations and woes, giving each other assurance and empathy.
We all agree that we can't have such quality talks in a club. It's so true that intoxication makes everybody instantaneous best friends.

I would love to unravel more things about them, other than their bad drinking abilities.
Girls should always have good girlfriends.

That aside, my WOW patch is giving me an unrelenting headache.
I need to get to level 19 by the next time I see Jonnie. Grrr.

Should put a picture of his face right beside my computer screen as a form of motivation.

All aside,

Happy Birthday Jasper Tan Xin Da!

Read

2010-04-29T08:10:00.000-07:00

“A book is the only place in which you can examine a fragile thought without breaking it, or explore an explosive idea without fear it will go off in your face. It is one of the few havens remaining where a man's mind can get both provocation and privacy.”
- Edward P. Morgan

A need to read.
A need for a good book.

Why can't AMK library be not so off the way?

Plan B?

2010-04-29T06:20:00.000-07:00

Initial plan: Go home, cook noodles & eat, go jogging, watch television/read a book, sleep.

In actual: Went home, got stranded outside the house because I conveniently forgot my keys, cooked noodles & ate, reply e-mails

It's not as if I don't spend half my time at work replying emails. & I still have to do it at home all because money just won't fall from the skies. Have to sell away clothes so that I can buy new clothes, such a vicious cycle.

I shall not upset my plans for today any further.
I shall jog.

A pleasant weekend.

2010-04-23T10:01:00.000-07:00

Nothing as comforting as a weekend.
It's 1am and I'm not feeling the least bit guilty about not being in bed- and that's a wonderful feeling.

It was a pleasant Friday despite ending work a little later than usual. The sight of friends after work instantly livens up my mood. Finally I can talk freely and in my normal volume and language without fear of being cast glances of repulse. Vulgarities have not departed from my mouth for quite some time now- I dare not think of the dire consequences I would be in if I should ever end up unconsciously spurt some vulgarity. I know I look quite like a civilized being, but I can be pretty uncouth and rowdy at times when circumstances arise.

After a simple dinner in town, we all departed for our own activities in which mine was to get ample rest. Finally dragged my legs down for a jog, and I almost thought I'd end up in an asthma attack. Jogged further than my legs could carry me, but there was no way back home other than relying on my legs which were about to give way. The aftermath is a pair of awfully aching legs. Have no idea how I'm gonna survive at Rebel in my heels tomorrow.

Jogging through the familiar neighbourhood makes me acutely aware of how soon I'm going to move away. Not going to dive into that topic now, or this will become an essay.
Anw, pictures from that random night Crosby & YC decided to meet up!

AMK buddies :)

Alright! I'm off for Gossip Girl & Vamp Diaries! :) Finished buffering already I'm so hyperventilating! AHHHHHH!

Dust away.

2010-04-21T08:22:00.001-07:00

Week 5 Day 3 over.

Been experiencing volcanic eruptions of emotions. I used to be an emotional ostrich, but now I'm at the mercy of my ardent emotions. I don't want to blame it being "the time of the month" because I know I can do so much better than this. I know I am capable of reining my thoughts that are running helter-skelter. I'm not going to let all the gray fluffs cloud my head.

Time at work passed excruciatingly slowly for me for the last two days- I was just idling around and staring into space, and even had to to counting the amount of paper I recycled just to pass time. Today was much better, the quotations came in and at least I felt useful.

Pictures from the day David felt just a little too rich.
Not only did he buy an Agnes B bag for a friend's 21st, he treated all of us to a sumptuous dinner at Din Tai Fung. Mad, no?

In the end we over-ordered, and had to play 5-10 to finish up the food. Such enticing luxurious food became such a torture to force down. I am abstaining from xiao long baos for a month.

David & J.

David & I.

I can't decide what I would do if I am rich.
I'm already contemplating what to buy with my first pay check. :) I know it's peanuts, but that is really hard earned money. I need to reward myself for being so disciplined.

Mmmmm, perhaps dye my hair?
Or that Kate Spade bag I have been I've kept an eye on since forever.
Wait, maybe a DSLR?

Venelyn Ong!

2010-04-19T08:30:00.001-07:00

VEN THE GREAT CAME TO PICK ME UP FROM WORK. :)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

1,2,3,4,5 David caught a prawn alive!

2010-04-12T06:06:00.000-07:00

Week 4 Day 1 over.

Went prawning with the Republicans yesterday.
Not very much my forte, not that I ashamed of it though- I would never squander on chancing for prawns.

It was David's unwavering spirit that kept him glued to the pond, competing with 11 others for the miserable amount of prawns, that managed us 4 petty prawns.
What a catch!

Went for a feast later on @ Bishan market.
I eat like a glutton, but am too lazy to exercise! :(

OH!
I finally completed Oven Break! :) I'm an Oven Breaker! :)
So happy I have that application & it's free thanks to D! Heehee!

Whimsical fantasy.

2010-04-08T04:16:00.001-07:00

2 days of MC which I don't know was beneficial for myself or not.
2 episodes of Gossip Girl, 17 episodes of Vampire Diaries.

The pendulum of my mind oscillates between fantasy and reality, caught up in a reverie of my own fabrication and then being slammed into reality the next swing.
I can't decide if I'd rather all the wealth and riches or some super power.

Mmmm
It would be neat to have some power like teleporting or flying. But what's the use if I'm always on time when the others are not?
And a power to inflict pain on others is not even desirable in the first place.
Okay, wait. I don't even know why I'm thinking of all the impossible and unattainable.

See, that's how dramas get you sucked into that black hole; an abyss of daydreaming and thinking of "what if"s. But it's not as if I'm not satisfied with life, or am always wishing for something more. It's just so humanly of us to use things too good to be true as a yardstick of our lives.

Okay, pictures first before I gabble more.

Vietnam is an alluring and captivating place, although the irony is that I would only let myself be allured or captivated only once. I don't think I'd budge if anyone has the idea of going to Vietnam again. It's a pleasant country, and I can imagine it to be a very peaceful and serene country like those you find paintings that festoons a hall. Yeah, it's nice if it's minus all the blaring sounds.

I don't know if I'd ever actually get down to writing about the country. I doubt I'd ever!

I'm going to try do something productive now...
Maybe get myself dinner? :)
Have a good weekend! T.G.I.F!

Can we communicate?

2010-04-07T01:43:00.000-07:00

Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.

- Grey’s Anatomy

I love to write, to bundle a string of words together that most aptly delivers what I have to offer. I initially started this blog, embracing a journal for me to pour out my own thoughts freely.
However, I knew it unwise to express my thoughts flagrantly, with people holding distasteful comments. People are just too quick to judge, and too impatient to discover and unravel.

I've already restricted myself from promulgating stuff too personal, but it seems like it's not enough. Sometimes I wonder if this blog is doing myself any good, and whether I should be more particular on who I herald myself to.

I have unfortunately, said too much again.
You've gained.

Change.

2010-04-03T11:01:00.000-07:00

Met up with the girls today!
A rather out of the blue event which came about from Taina's outburst of boredom and refusal to waste her weekend at home. Since I was already with MJ they just all gathered to our convenience.

We met @Vivo all for our dearest QX's sake. She's working at B&J, and you should always hope that she's serving you, cause her ice cream scoops are always a little bigger than normal. I think this job really suits her to the T. It was a joy to see her enthusiastically serving her customers with that big wide smile of hers. :)

We sat down and talked, and it's amazing how there's always something new to discover about someone. It's true that you can never know a person enough.

It's a comfort to know that some things just don't change, and that you can find solace in familiarity. With things that change, reminiscence is the best way of remembering the better.

I admit I myself have metamorphosed, in many trivial ways that is tantamount to my entire mental outlook. I used to be so adamant and unrelenting in certain values that have now eroded and scoured off. I can almost hear Ms Susan Leong's famous words- "The only constant thing in life is change."

Anyhow, it was a simple and pleasant evening together, and I'm grateful that everyone took out time for each other. As my mother always says, "New friends are silver, and the old friends, gold."

You all, are therefore, my pot of gold :)

Rebellion!

2010-04-01T09:13:00.000-07:00

Here while waiting for pig Jessiporks to wake up! Stewpig girl slept @ 2am still cannot wake up in time to meet us, grrrr.

Yesterday was awesome! (minus the whole trembling in fear & worry part)
Went down to Sentosa yesterday for buffet lunch @ a yacht club, courtesy to Nigel's father. Thereafter cabbed down to town to meet Ven + Jia for Rebel! :) So I was super sticky + disgusting eeks, never bathe before going down to Rebel. Pity whoever came close to me!

Some pictures. First time I brought my camera into Rebel & it was ostracized by Ven's shiny and newly bought camera. So most pictures are with Ven!

Okay, Jess is taking way too long! I'm gonna watch some Gossip Girl now! :) I've been so deprived!

Going down to Vivo later to visit QX at work! :)

Wake up!

2010-03-26T21:07:00.000-07:00

My blog has very much been dormant, with my bones weary and drenched with fatigue. Greeting the light of the day at ungodly hour coupled 8.5 hours of work makes the fittest man tired.

But I am with no complaints. Work has been smooth-sailing, and I’ve integrated well into the workplace. The only worry is that I’ve been anathematized by my neighbour-colleague who always casts a foreboding look at me whenever our eyes meet. Bad premonition.

Work aside, I would very much like to write a lengthy post about my trip to the hidden charm- Vietnam. Time is however, not very much on my side. I am now in a rush to do some shopping at the Helipad flea. :)

I'll come back with more :)

:(

2010-03-03T09:11:00.000-08:00

This seriously sucks. Exams are finally over, and I'm sick! :(
Thought I was better after downing medicine yesterday but the fever came back! Must be the massive amount of crabs we ate just now.
Chilli crab, Black pepper crab, Crab beehoon, Butter prawns and sweet and sour pork. Mad, not? But it was sooo good I think it can be a weekly affair. (just a little costly)

Watching American Idol now! :)
Supporting two contestants currently...

I like Tim Urban, he's so cute! Those eyes and natural curls. Zomggg.

But I doubt he'd go far, so I better not pin too much hopes. He's got such a pretty face though! Damn sad his vocals are not as good as the rest.

So I bet this season it's going to be...
Lee Dewyze!!!

But I don't dare to say already! Everytime I say someone will win the opposite happens. :(

Can't wait for The Lovely Bones to come out!!!

18 18 18 18 18!!!

Internship

2010-03-02T03:58:00.000-08:00

Placement results out! :)

I'll be in town for 6 months, slogging at Holiday Tours.
Need to do well for this cause it's my only hope for a better GPA!

Must do well!
Must!

Birthday week!

2010-02-28T09:31:00.000-08:00

Birthday filled weekend!

Went for Tab's BBQ first!

Yay happy zappy wappy birthday Tabbie! Sorry you had to have a melting birthday cake! But it's yummy ice cream cake so I bet it was finger lickin' good!

My fav cookies and cream! slurpssss!

Hahaha don't have to be sad looking at your height here!

Thereafter we moved on to Rebel! 3 birthdays ongoing- Jeffrey, Soewandi and Val's. Super maximum packed we had to elbow our way past each other. Hate it when sweaty people brush past me it's damn grrrr.

Soewandi opened 3 cannons. One table 3 cannons not mad at all?! That's like almost 3k, like a normal working person's monthly salary literally flowing away.

I totally cannot imagine how I'd spend my money if I'm rich. Wishful thinking once again.

Denise!!

Jourdan!!

Samantha totally not concentrating on taking a photo with me! :(
I am so proud and happy cause I was taking care of her that night! :) Finally instead of people taking care of me. Yay!

Samantha and Lam!!

More unglam shots! Hate it when the pictures are not in my camera cannot delete unglam ones grrr! Hahaha! I always leave my camera in the locker cause I scaredy cat don't want to lose my camera like how David lost his phone nor do I want to spoil my camera like how Jourdan did to his phone.

Lastly, went to celebrate Junhao's birthday!

Tomorrow is going to be another good day! Meeting Ven in the afternoon, and in the evening going for crabbbs (hopefully) with Samantha, Cecilia, Ewen & J!
These few days have been so happy zappy good! I will miss this kinda life when internship starts! :(

Forthysia.

2010-02-26T23:05:00.000-08:00

Lucas: There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
- One Tree Hill

Went to ECP yesterday for a day of fun! Rented three tandems and we decided that the girls would cycle the guys instead! Alot of people were giving weird stares hahah!

XB! ferried him, I'm freaking pro! Super strenuous exercise to cycle him! But it was worth it cause we had a good talk, like individual interview where the focus is the depth, not the breadth. (HAHAH MARKETING AFTER EFFECTS ZOMGGG)

VT & MT! :)

YC & KK! :)

SB & VT! :)

Cycling gang!

Then we went to play by the beach.

Made a circle around VT & I was telling her she looks like a sacrificial item- roasted pig! Can't you see the resemblance?

& all of them fooled me by hiding my slippers & making me wholeheartedly believe that my slippers vanished!
Rewinds me back to 5 years ago when I lost my slippers when the waves swept them away.

Group shots! :)

Another memory collected!
I'm happy zappy that I went for the cycling trip despite waking up at 2pm to my disbelief. Was too drained to continue throughout the night though.

Learnt too much in a night itself. Why provode my thoughts? Hate it when I start doubting myself and questions cloud my mind.

No time to think too much. Must shake off morbid thoughts.
Have to get ready to go for Tab's party & Soewandi's thereafter! Then tmr there's Junhao's celebration too. Birthday parties weekend!

Oh, before I go!!!
I named my phone Forthysia. Took me quite some time cause I wanted to name it Azalea as well but that was the name of my previous ipod already!
Forsythia is pure joy. There is not an ounce, not a glimmer of sadness or even knowledge in forsythia. Pure, undiluted, untouched joy.
- Anne Morrow

Next time greet it "Hi Forthysia!"

Black Thursday

2010-02-23T08:10:00.000-08:00

I realize I've been rather impulsive in my decisions as of late. I don't really have much thought process, and blatantly jump into whatever I feel like doing for that moment.

At 2am+, the morning of my paper we hungry souls gathered for supper to the convenience of David at Yishun despite my outcries of AMK Macs. Totally threw in the towel and raised the white flag to GOM. Nothing was going into my pea brain. Thankfully the paper wasn't too tough, although I am pretty sure I threw away considerable amount of marks.

Rushed down after paper to meet Ven & Jia to study! They treat me to lunch at a new yummy place! Feel like having a bowl of beef noodles NOW!
Super irritating Jia had that "seh" face when he came up with drawings to make us guess song lyrics. Super addictive I succumbed to temptation and guessed song after songs. Super classic character, Jia! Keep acting like Chuck Bass & Da Lang! He made me laugh until my muscles ache. Cannot imagine how Ven can face him everyday and not die laughing seriously. & they made me start watching Hai Pai Tian Xin which is !@#$%! SUPER ADDICTIVE!
(Why I everything super?)

I WATCH UNTIL I LATE FOR PAPER TODAY! Today mega suay x10!
1. Woke up at 8.34am when my paper is at 9.00am, RUSH LIKE MAD.
2. Went down for a cab, sooo many people waiting so I had to call for a cab. MONEY FLY
3. Reached the paper half an hour late, RUSH LIKE MAD
4. Paper was so hard in the end I finished early cause I didn't know what to write !@$%

WORST OF ALL..
5. I LOST MY WALLET

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

Okay let me post pictures from today to make me feel happier zappier!

We were mighty faithful friends who trooped down to Shangri La with KK for his interview. Braved the scorching sun all for our friend's sake!

DS addicts, not?

Then we conquered our fear of heights on the Orchard Central escalators ONCE AGAIN. Still sends shiver down my spine every time. GRRR.

This is the photo which convinces me I lost my wallet cause I didn't zip my bag. :( Like mega wide open!

See SF's classic scared face!

Nehneh, I sound so incoherent. I don't like!
Oh well, hope my wallet comes back to me! It's pretty sad to lose my wallet cause I realized that J's first notes to me are inside the wallet! :( Hateeee myself. :(

Compulsive Repetition

2010-02-22T08:55:00.000-08:00

I confirm chop you haven't seen someone who has digressed from studying as much I did today. I really, really tried but I can't seem to be distracted by everything.
Write notes halfway and the DS was screaming for my attention. Played and completed Professor Layton (that's almost 60 puzzles I solved today, mind you)
Decide to go back to studying and then the sun seems to be too bright it blinds my eyes I went to take forty winks. Napped for one and a half hours.
Wake up and try to study again but saw notifications in FB. T
hen decided to post on sgflea, add more clothes to sell etc.

WHY AM I SUCH A PROCRASTINATOR?!
Nevermind here I am again blogging instead of studying.
WHY LIKE THAT?!
I really lost the ability to really mug after O's. I keep ranting here so sorry but I'm just too bored with nothing better to do!

Pictures! I realized it's been a long time since I took pictures cause of my silly bangs. Yay cause it's growing out so I can finally face the camera with my million dollars smile!

Here's the day I brought my books and notes to R! Actually only because I met VT to study before that which was a failure as you would have read from my previous post hahah!

I look like a ghost head with no body here heehee. Thousand unglam pictures of me looking insane but I'm going to preserve my image here! :)

Eh do you know you the undo function works here! Control+Z like in Microsoft Word! Okay I'm totally amazed cause I didn't know that and just now I accidentally overwrite, damn pekchek try Control+Z and it worked! \ ^-^ /

Tomorrow (or rather, today) is Gaming Operations Management!
Alot of people can't believe it but yes I learn about Casino Operations and have to learn how to play various games like Craps, Keno, Bingo, BlackJack, Poker, Baccarat, Sic Bo, Pai Gow etc. When I told my friend I got a super shock face in return super funny! But it's not at all easy peasy okay! :(

Then there's Marketing Research on Thursday and Human Resource Management on Wednesday! I should type out what kind of modules I take in my course. It's pretty interesting hahah! Okay I've crapped enough should return to my books!

You are the only exception.

2010-02-21T09:01:00.000-08:00

To analyze the charms of flowers is like dissecting music;
it is one of those things which it is far better to enjoy,
than to attempt to fully understand.
Henry T. Tuckerman

Hopefully I'd be very rich when I grow up so I can have a garden filled with forthysias, azaleas and roses. So I can give myself flowers instead of waiting for someone to give them to me :) Reminds me of how I was ranting on and on at Rebel about how I didn't need a boyfriend, and all I needed were my girl friends. Funny thing was the girls I were with that day were friends I just made. Was totally mad that night, I was too hyper I was waving and saying hi to everybody possible. I even went to pat a guy's neatly shaven head. Zomggg.

Shan't disclose more of the hilarious things I did! As you can see, I tend to blog more when it's close to exam time cause I'm absolutely bored studying. I was so bored I even downloaded tons of applications for my phone.

The below picture is supposed to have a lomo effect. Quite fail?

& then there's the polaroid effect, with my freaking cute little baby cousin.

Babies really have all the spotlight at family gatherings. Everyone was waiting for their turn to carry this little darling, and coming up with 101 ways to make him smile. Hopefully my sister or brother would get married soon and give birth to babies for me to play with! I mean I can't get married until they are married!

Sunkist!

After procrastinating for hoursss, I think it's time to go back to my books.
Maybe I'll go bathe first there's smoke all over the house cause people are praying to tian gong (according to VT) Which reminds me we watched Percy Jackson! :D Supposed to be studying, but we are super fail together. Ended up talking crap and dragged YC and Crosby down the waters with us too.

It was quite a corny plot, but Logan Lerman makes up for everything. Ultimate pretty boy! I was so mesmerized! He has such deep eyes that you can just gaze in and get lost in. Zomgg. New heart throb heehee! :) I share with you all!

<3!

& MY ZEUS IN DOTA IS AS GOOD AS THE ZEUS IN PJ!

Keno!

2010-02-20T09:35:00.000-08:00

Taking a much needed break from studying! :( I really never dreaded studying so much ever? I usually don't mind and even used to enjoy writing pretty notes. But it's such a torture now, zomggg. Can't wait for everything to be over so I can really enjoy myself without feeling guilty or worry!

Like even when I went to Chomps for supper I was thinking about Black Jack and Keno, trying to memorize the game play. On one hand it's a familiar topic cause we do play BJ especially since it's CNY, but on the other hand it's difficult to remember all the terms that are driving me nuts. :(

I feel like giving up on my studies and just play! But I guess I had enough fun already?
GRRRRRRRRRRR okay back to Gaming Operations. Okay let me tell you all how Keno is played okay! I give all Tourism students a tutorial now!

1. Patrons select a game they would like to play from a list of available games.
2. They then fill out a keno ticket by either choosing their own numbers or requesting for a "quick pick"!
3. Patrons have to decide how may games they would play their ticket for.
4. Keno tickets can be played as a striaght ticket, where numbers picked are not grouped.
5. Or play keno tickets as a way ticket where numbers are grouped.
6. After all bets have been received, the Keno host beings the game.
7. During the keno game, 20 random balls are selected and placed in the order in which they are called. They can be auto called, called by a random-number generator or called by keno hosts who pull a level that retrieves balls randomly from a keno bowl.
8. At the end of each game, balls are verified and winners paid.

:)
THANK ME QUICK!

CNY

2010-02-18T07:11:00.000-08:00

CNY was really and literally a blast.
By that, I mean that there's a huge hole in my pocket. I realize that I'm quite a compulsive gambler and henceforth I am going through rehabilitation. Doesn't help that Jeline just opened her house tomorrow for a CNY party. Temptation 101!
We'll see! :)

I went to get a new phone just now with my father & he was sooo funny.
"There are only 2 kinds of phone in this world.
Firstly, there's the Iphone. And the second type is the going to change to Iphone"
So you'll have guessed it right- I got myself an Iphone! :) Now I have a new DS and a new iphone to gear me for the new year! :)

SQM :(

2010-02-09T08:43:00.000-08:00

SO BORED OF STUDYING.

But then again, I haven't even tried starting. :(
Someone save me?

Rambling, seriously.

2010-02-07T23:58:00.000-08:00

Really bored of studying a senseless subject, where everything is seemingly repetitive. :( Arrrghhhh. Need to go out and play, shop do something fun soon if not I'll probably die of words overload. :(

So demoralized because boring subject no interest to study totally want to sleep.
Slack slack slack no mood going to fail.

Can't wait for all these to be over! But then again, internship is scary since I don't know where I'll be going at my current state. :(

I love my Zhang Zhi Lin, his singing makes me melt I want to cry. :(

19.

2010-02-07T08:12:00.000-08:00

Yay to my 19th! :)
It was a huge mega surprise for me! Was totally caught off guard, and I was so unglamorous that day I totally look like shit.
Was puking like mad on that day cause I binged too much, food overload. Puked 5 times I cannot imagine how come someone can have so much puke in them. Zomggg.
I had my birthday dress planned but they held my celebrations on the 5th instead! Hahaha.
& I didn't bring my camera that day too, such a pity! Had to run around borrowing cameras. :D

I got my favourite ice-cream cake credits to David! :)
Makes me crave for a slice now already.

My girlssss! :)

Jonnieeee!

Class girls! :)

Yeee Chuan!

Jourdan!

Szetoh, Jonnie & Jasper!

Jeline!

Have to thank sooo many people I wanted to message them all but that would be too tiresome.
Thanks all for coming! It was a blast.

Obviously, thank you J for organizing and coordinating everything. :)
So thoughtfully planned out. I couldn't make it on the 6th cause I had reunion dinner, but my mad slow brain didn't think it'd be on the 5th. :D

I'm happy!!

Cherish.

2010-01-24T10:46:00.000-08:00

Waiting for my eyelids to feel heavier before I head to dreamland!
So here I am uploading photos into FB & blogging here- which is a form of relaxation I hardly get to enjoy these days. Projects really drain every single bit of energy in me.

So anyhow, Saturday night was Szetoh's birthday at Mezza 9, Hyatt.

A little bit of an exaggeration I reckon. Who spends thousands on their 19th birthday? I still remember his 18th, where he booked a hotel in Shangri La. Zomg, I can't believe I was there. Seems like eons ago, but it was just last year that we created havoc in the hotel & had to be deported to another room. :D
So cliche but true, time really flies.

Jourdan! :) Super kiam.

J & Min.

J & J!

Jourdan the kiam.
The moment I posted this picture on FB he had to post some stupid kiam comment.

J & I!

Hahah, the couple shot failed. Both coincidentally blinked. Oh wait, maybe it's called couple chemistry?

& tadah~ the birthday boy.

His cake was a walabee! Not the typical candles that we poor peasants have, but mini sparklers. Disparity between the rich and the poor revealed in the birthday candles.

Even the staff had to come down to participate. I could almost imagine them shouting "Fish & Co, Fish & Co!" But obviously high class Mezza 9 has a more classy way of doing the birthday song.

They went off to Rebel to continue partying while the disciplined me headed home to tie up loose ends of various projects. I tide through this tough period where everyday feels like a battle.
Must fight on.

Went for family dinner just now to celebrate my brother's 25th! :) Had yummy crab, thinking of it now makes me want to drool.
Once again the issue of the chalet was raked up. (my father paid for the birthday chalet) On one hand, I'm thankful that my father offered to pay, since I don't have to fork out a cent. But I feel the pinch of guiltiness in me, cause I know that although we can still afford such little luxuries in life, money is after all hard earned.
I promise here to give my parents an amount from my first intern pay check. As my mother would say, it's not the amount of money- it can be merely 50cents. It's the thought that counts. I should be thankful that I have such supportive parents. Even simple actions like my mother helping me laminate my project work makes me feel so grateful and warm from within.
Need to cherish.
Need to.

With that, I shall leave destinysky to head to bed.
"Tomorrow's gonna be a good day!" says the optimist in me.

2010-01-23T08:45:00.000-08:00

Just one of those days when I feel so withdrawn and detached from anything and everything. Don't feel like answering calls nor replying texts. Basically don't feel like doing anything but sit on the couch and listen to the wind chime and enjoying the silence.

So tired.

Nonsense.

2010-01-18T09:08:00.001-08:00

Taking a break from projects. The intensity of the work is overwhelming, and there are just times when I feel like kicking the bucket and just let my hair loose and have real fun without having thoughts of uncompleted reports bugging me.
If only I have more self discipline that when I'm doing work I'm actually doing quality work. I'm always half shopping half typing half singing half daydreaming. Oh that doesn't make it half of everything already.

Okay, Lydia shall not procrastinate.
Must do work.
Must.

Yellow Day (because I'm watching Green Day LIVE)

2010-01-10T08:26:00.000-08:00

Cousins outing @ Harry's Pub.
Had a reservation at Timbre actually, but because we're of the same blood, we were late & our reservation was given up.
13 cousins altogether that night.

The guys. :)

& the girls! :)

& the 3 of us!

I just realized that it's usually a threesome. (Brit's 3 auto plays in my head)
In my family, there's 3 children.
In my primary school, there's Jermaine & ZhiWei- 3!
From Cedar it's MJ & Jess- 3!
Then there's me, Sha & Tab- 3!

I had a really fun weekend (that is besides project-ing)
Saturday was Zirca for Jourdan's birthday
& Sunday was Wild Wild Wet with Ryan, Tab, Sha & Isaac
I wish my days didn't have to be dulled with projects. I really want January to end. But then again, I don't want Sha to leave.

J's 19th!

2010-01-05T00:39:00.000-08:00

Happy 19th J!

He claims he enjoyed his birthday, so I would just live in denial thinking it was the best party ever. Really made a fool out of myself though. :(
New resolution is not to drink beyond my means (which is pathetic anw)
Can't believe I bugged Chua one hour to listen to my 'fairytale stories'.

It wasn't the best party ever, because my puny brain failed to envision what could happen, and there were so many decorations & such I missed out. & although you weren't the least bit surprised at all, thanks for trying to put up a show all the while!
Hopefully I'd get to host more of your birthdays for you.

Barker boys. I wanted to write "Barkeroos" like the restaurant "Buckaroos" but I contemplated twice.

Don't have a good memory for names, so that's the girls from J's school.

J & I

MJ & Jess! :) Thanks for coming down to keep my company, and listen to me rant.
2010 will be a good year for us! 1,2,3!

Wei Hoe, Jasper, Jonnie & Edmund! (with Ewen & David in the background)

J, Jonnie, Nigel Wee & Cheng

Me with the two Leongs!

Have a list of people to thank, feeling exceptionally sentimental. I won't go into details, but special thanks go to Jasper Tan Xin Da, David Tjong, Melvin (idk what goes behind), Jiang Mujia and Jessica Shen. :)

It was so funny cause prior to the birthday party, we've been spending all the days with the Barkeroos & they kept blurting out about the chalet.
Jasper: Nevermind, we go chalet & eat the paper there.
Wei Hoe: Eh Lydia so tomorrow what time and where ah?
Daryl: Lydia, can I bring Jeline to the chalet?

All in all, I reckon it was impossible that J would not have known about the chalet. It's like a repeat of what VT on Angie's birthday. Super hilarious I swear. It's hard when there's so many absent minded people. :D

2010

2009-12-31T23:14:00.000-08:00

First post of 2010! :)
Went for Nigel Wee's house party with the Barker Boys! Photos are from Chua's camera & he's uber efficient, zomg. I just woke up & tadah~ the pictures are there already!

Big 2 & Blackjack first which I was a good girl who only gambled within my means. With my base of $2, I didn't let myself lose any money! (but neither did I gain any too) Just dutifully took many pictures with Chua's camera. :)

Daryl Teo!! :)

Lam, Wei Hoe & Jasper!

Sat down at the playground for drinking games.

Hilarious picture of everyone! Superrr funny!
& once again I remained sober! Actually got a little tipsy, but Leong was super high so I had to keep clear-headed to make sure he didn't cause any trouble. Dutiful, as always :)

Heng they never end up clubbing! On normal days it would be fine, but NO to clubbing on festive seasons!

All of us!

Looking at the pictures make me realize that I've known them for quite some time now. From being so shy around with them, to now. I think I took quite a long time to break the ice. I mean I'm usually very chirpy & talkative, but when you are with one bunch of guys it's a different story.

Leong!

Me & my first new friend of 2010, Jeline! :)
Daryl & her go together on the 1st of Jan 2010! :) Really happy cause there's a girl I can talk to in the group, so I won't have to stone whenever them boys are talking about boy-ish stuff.

Chua & I! Daryl totally looks like a ghost, trying to sneak up on our shot. I had to think for like 3 seconds who he was.

My cutest Jonnie! Look at his face! Epic!

Wei Hoe!

Hahaha look at Jonnie's face! :D & I'm desperately trying to jump into the photo.

Don't know what I was doing beside the road that I had to be pulled away.

The party was a blast although we created too much noise & had to be asked to move away.

Will blog more tmr! :)

Melts!

2009-12-29T09:46:00.000-08:00

So cute! :)

3 days in school doing project! Zomg, holidays?

Anyway, it's time for new year's resolution again! I set resolutions every year, and I don't think I adhere to even half of them. All the determination of going jogging regularly, spend more time at home etc wears off so fast. I shall try more practical resolutions this time round?

1. Spend more time with my mother!
Go for dinner with her after school (haven't done that in ages!)
Go for breakfast with her on Saturday morning @ JC at least once a month

2. Less cabs!
Try to go home before the train and bus services run out, cannot take midnight cabs more than once a week, seriouslyyy!
Wake up earlier and seriously stop oversleeping

3. Do not skip school more than once a fortnight
I know it's impossible for me not to skip school, I mean there are just days you just can't drag yourself to school?!
& then there are days where school has to be skipped to rush projects
& more days where Orchard calls...

4. Show more love!
Buy more random gifts for my family & friends

5. Write to Jerusha Ho & Joanne Lee
I always give up writing when life gets so busy? But I really want to write!
Once a month at the very least?

I have sooo many more but these are a few I can think of now!
Countdown is technically tomorrow! Wheee!

Pictures from Christmas Celebrations!

Went with my sister to church for service. The church still feels warm even having though I haven't been attending for months. I guess that's just how it is since I grew up there?

My brother happy with Popeyes my sister bought him! (AMK has a newly opened branch of Popeyes, aren't you jealous?!)

Tabbie!

& thereafter we moved to T for Tim's house for countdown party! Second year going for his house party. Usual groups playing poker, PS 3 and some just find pleasure disturbing a hungry dog.

(I secretly pray Jasper never sees this hahaha)

Between the previous picture and this, we moved from T's house to Rebel's entrance, and to Jasper's house. Like massive mad the whole Clarke Quay was so crowded, thank goodness I didn't hyperventilate. Heng never club I think I'll be massive mad if everybody stepped on my toes and steal the air I breathe. I had so much fun at Jasper's house playing Wii I think it's x10 better squeezing with everyone. Argh, itching for Wii.

& then there was also Christmas drinking party at D for Daryl's place.
I was so stressed kay cause I never everybody there are good drinkers, and I am definitely nothing close to that. I should google why some people are just natural bad drinkers or something.

Eh but surprisingly I managed to leave sober despite downing shots! (pats myself on shoulder) I think you can sort of control how well you want to hold your liquor? I mean usually I get all high/drunk after a few pathetic shots, that everyone thinks I'm a loser. But that day I was telling myself I cannot get drunk cause I have friends waiting for me at home!
(okay luh plus the fact there was J to tank some shots for me)

Double J! Being all sneaky under the covers.

Double J again! Feel like I was with a bunch of gays that night. Hahaha!

My cool Jonnie!

& this is @ AMK!

Had some girls over at our house for games and such. Super funny we were screaming and fighting with each other so that we wouldn't need to get a forfeit. Never heard a bunch of girls screaming together in such a long time. The last time I did was probably with MJ & Jess where we screamed like mad in a lift. Hahah.

Sha stayed over, and was sooooo mad funny! She fell asleep while we were watching a show so me and my sister sneaked up to her...

btw, that's a bikini! My sister's idea I wanted to be nice and only throw two smiley faces on her knees.

& she slept like a pig throughout all our giggling and drawing! Mad funny?!

& that's when the pig rose... with a shock of her life! :D

Hahaha, yeah I had a fun Christmas! Maybe not a very meaningful one though... hope I have both a fun and meaningful Christmas next year!

I don’t want to wait anymore. I choose to believe that there is nothing more sacred or profound than this day. I choose to believe that there may be a thousand big moments embedded in this day, waiting to be discovered like tiny shards of gold. The big moments are the daily, tiny moments of courage and forgiveness and hope that we grab on to and extend to one another. That’s the drama of life, swirling all around us, and generally I don’t even see it, because I’m too busy waiting to become whatever it is I think I am about to become. The big moments are in every hour, every conversation, every meal, every meeting.

Shauna Niequist (via thresca)

2009-12-24T12:54:00.000-08:00

Haven't had the time to blog. Everyday is a routine these days- just that it's fun routine!
Wake up to Sha's voice, arrange to meet, meet up, play & laugh like mad, go home & sleep. (x10)
She's going to Penang tmr so I'm going to chiong projects like mad! (like I'm trying to do now) Hopefully when she's back I've cleared all my work and enjoy the rest of her days in Singapore.

Christmas was good! Pictures will be up soon! :)
Next is countdown which I'm all hyped up for!

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect.
It means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections.

Chick!

2009-12-18T11:48:00.000-08:00

Too bad I grow up too fast, but Nick grew up with me! :)
4.20am now & I'm trying to kill time, waiting for the chick to land! :)

In the mean time, we just finished playing Monopoly! :) Exciting cause I just bought the SpongeBob Edition & it's so cute! :) Gonna invite more people to enjoy my new board game with me! :) My house has become a gaming (not gambling) den, welcoming visitors everyday.

All these have to come to an end soon with projects rolling in yet again. :( Endless stream. :(
Bad time for the chick to be back cause I'll be sooooo busy! :(
BUT because I love her I will make time for her. (Hope she sees this!) Hahaha.

HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS PLEASE DON'T END?

I'm not making any sense

2009-12-10T08:59:00.000-08:00

Flying off to BKK in a couple of hours! :)
Hello shopping haven!

I've spent quite a bomb the past few days, & I don't want to go into details. Just need to save money really badly! :(

Here's pictures from our group project @ LY's house! All girls team! :)

& this was MJ's birthday surprise! :)
Went down to TP, and had collaborated with her classmates to give her a surprise!

Yeah, that's the three of us! :)
& then there was QX's chalet! :)
Goodbye to books! Yay!

Okay, I'm going to pack my bag now! :)
Have so many plans for my holidays!!!

SHEESHEE HO IS COMING BACK!!!

SICK!

2009-12-08T07:23:00.000-08:00

SICK OF STUDYING.
SICK OF STUDYING.
SICK OF STUDYING.

There's Horn section outing tomorrow but I have exams. The message they sent was so happy zappy wappy cause all their exams are over. Apparently I'm the only poor person left with exams?! :(

POOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :(

I DON'T LIKE TO STUDY & I'M ANGRY! >:(

TVB Awards

2009-12-04T06:06:00.000-08:00

I'm typing this while watching TVB Awards!
I'M HYPERVENTILATING! :D :D :D

Most Popular Artiste Award: Wayne Lai
I'm pretty alright with him, I knew he was rising this year. I'm a little sad that it's not Kevin Cheng, Charmaine Sheh or Raymond Lum but I know they can't be winning every award...

Most Loved Female TV Character:
Top 5
1. Sheren Tang- Rosy Business
2. Tavia Yeung- Beyond the Realm of Conscience
3. Theresa Mo- Off Pedar
4. Charmaine Sheh- You’re Hired
5. Charmaine Sheh- Beyond the Realm of Conscience

Winner: Tavia Yeung, Yiu Kam Ling in Beyond the Realm of Conscience

(TOTALLY SHOULD HAVE BEEN WON BY CHARMAINE SHEH!)
She was evil in the show & Charmaine was the kind one why she win my heart faints.
But it's because Charmaine was nominated twice in the same category- in Gong & also in You're Hired, hence her votes were split and THEREFORE she couldn't win.

Charmaine Sheh was the only actress who was top 5 twice in the category though so it's a huge achievement already, and hence a big comfort to me.

Most Loved Male TV Character:
Wayne Lai, Chai Kau in Rosy Business

This show is like the SHOW OF THE YEAR thing... so I almost could guess it was him.

Best Supporting Actor
Top 5:
1. Ngo Wah (Elliot Yue)- The Gem of Life
2. Michael Tse- E.U
3. Pierre Ngo- Rosy Business
4. Lee Kwok Lam- Beyond the Realm of Conscience
5. Kenneth Ma- Born Rich

Winner: Michael Tze (E.U)

Yay! I'm so happy for him cause I think he deserved recognition for his role in E.U it was so memorable. Not to mention the fact that he's been with TVB for so long, he deserves something.

Best Performance: Tavia Yeung

Besides Sheren Tang, this is also the year of Tavia Yeung.

Best Actor Award Nominees:

1. Dayo Wong- You’re Hired
2. Wayne Lai- Rosy Business
3. Kevin Cheng- Beyond the Realm of Conscience
4. Michael Tse-E.U
5. Moses Chan- The Gem of Life

Winner: Wayne Lai (don't want to talk about this)

Best Actress Award Nominees:

Top 5:
1. Ada Choi- The Gem of Life
2. Tavia Yeung- Beyond the Realm of Conscience
3. Charmaine Sheh- Beyond the Realm of Conscience
4. Teresa Mo- Off Pedar
5. Sheren Tang- Rosy Business

Winner: Sheren Tang (OBVIOUSLY)
No need to go further into details everybody knew she would win.

To conclude, the biggest winners of this year:

Sheren Tang and Wayne Lai

Okay, I should really be studying. I got distracted again :(
SOMEONE KILL ME?!

CHARMAINE SHEH!!! NEXT YEAR PLEASE!

I'm AWESOME!

2009-11-28T10:18:00.000-08:00

Sorry, just had to do this because I'm awesome! :)

Has been quite an exciting week! :)
Finally met Zhiwei, Yuzhi & Edwin Teng after like 10 years, & we went to watch New Moon together! Not an avid fan of Twilight, in fact I merely watch it to see what the whole craze is about. If you'd ask me, I still don't think it's much of a hoohawalabee. Bad for the heart too, cause after watching it I was totally smitten with the wolfguy, who was dead drop cute!

(from my most fav tumblr website!)

Pictures from Ryan's birthday BBQ! :) It was at his beautiful condo with a spectacular view. That being said, I'm totally afraid of heights. :( I hate this stupid phobia of heights I have.

Soooo, I met the two Js who were so coincidentally wearing white shirts. JJJJJJJJ!

Tabbieee! :)

The girls- Erin, my sister & MQ! :)

& the birthday celebration! 3 cakes to fill all our stomachs! Love cheesecake!

Btw, the two are twin brothers. Amazing right? I always wondered how it would feel like to have a twin. Wishing for something like Sweet Valley High. :D

Popping Sparkling Juice!

Us trying to act like a Family. :D

My sister & her date. :D

& group pictures! :)

This week spells studying for mid semester exams which I am totally unprepared for. Lecture notes are all blank & most not even printed. Sighhh, hate studying, totally lost the drive to study. How did I use to sit on the same spot for hours looking at words?! Zomg.

:(
Need some great motivation.

LYDIA! PRESS ON! YOU ROCK MY WORLD!

Songs!

2009-11-28T08:56:00.001-08:00

Currently waiting for Gossip Girls to stream! :)
An influx of shows to watch all of a sudden- there's still 90210, where I'm stuck in the middle on season 1, along with V which I'm planning to start. Not to mention Heroes too! :)

& & & did you see Adam Lambert on Life! today?!
Anyway, I was so kiasu I already long downloaded him + Kris Allen's album.

As you all would know, I have always been on Team A!
Songs I love from his new album:
1: Sleepwalker
2: Broken Open
3: Whataya Want From Me
4: If I Had You
5: Pick U Up
6: Time For Miracles

However, because I'm more neutral now with Kris Allen now, I have to admit I like his album better than Adam's. Vocals wise, there's no dispute that Adam is better. But Kris' was more heartfelt and just more appealing to me?
1. The Truth
2. Bring it Back
3. Red Guitar
4. Is it Over
5. Let it Rain
6. Lifetime
7. I Need to Know

Okay need to stop sounding like a critic. Far from one, in fact. :D
I'm just here to waste my time. Will post pictures from Ry's birthday BBQ soon! :)

You are fabulous!

2009-11-20T10:43:00.000-08:00

CLICK HERE FOR SOMETHING TO MAKE YOU SMILE!
(ps: not a virus, it's just an ego-booster?)

When lectures get too boring & you're the back benchers, you cameroid.

When you're too bored doing projects, you cameroid.

Taking a breather from doing project!
Have to work doubly hard cause date lines are approaching & it's scary given my progress. But I don't seem to have a sense of urgency, because I always believe the work can be rushed out in due time. Procrastinator in me screaming! Bad Lydia, bad Lydia. Really hope I can be more fruitful tomorrow! 2 cans of Red Bull awaits me!

Am kinda sick now with a bad bout of flu that makes my eyes tear & nose runny. :(
J came down with a kind intention of wanting to buy me food but it was futile cause I wasn't home. Went to town to attempt doing our project.
I swear being at Dr Cafe is gradually becoming embarrassing. We just keep drinking Coffee Frappe, & that's the only drink we'd order. Addicts not? Today is the first time I felt over saturated with Cookie Frappe. But I'm sure when I wake up tomorrow again I'd be craving for it all over again. Zomg.

Anyway, town was flooded with streams of JC kids who have sort of completed their A's. Was quite weird to see groups of them cause they've all been seemingly hibernating for the past few months. I somehow think my weekday empty streets of Orchard will soon be invaded. Don't really like competing for fresh air. Hahaha, but looking on the bright side, I can finally meet those JC kids! :)

I feel so bright & chirpy now despite it being 3AM & my stupid flu. :)

Daydreaming!

2009-11-19T19:32:00.000-08:00

"The cost of oblivious daydreaming was always this moment of return, the realignment with what had been before and now seemed a little worse. Her reverie, once rich in plausible details, had become a passing silliness before the hard mass of the actual. It was difficult to come back."
- Atonement

Haven't been here for awhile! There's so many things I'd like to pen down. I like to imagine how if one day I should lose my memory I'd come to destinysky@bs to rediscover myself. I really want to change this domain I have, but I just can't seem to bear to.

Anyway, here are the pictures I owe... just a handful only don't scold me! Will upload to FB when I have more time to patiently do so!

This was our mini gathering! :) Really a pity that Manprit & QX are busy with their A's & couldn't be there.

Celebrated their birthdays!

Talking about A's, there are so many people I wanna meet after they finish their A's! After they finish (not too far!) though, us Poly kids would be starting on mid-semester exams. Plus now it's peak busy period cause projects are piling up!

The following were us Photog kids taking shots for our project. TOTALLY FAIL PLS?! No technique, no SLR how to get good grades?!
But it was fun nevertheless! I swear I always burst out laughing whenever I try to pose for a picture.

& VT no better than me, look super am-chio in this picture?!

Frame within a frame! :)

& finally, here are pictures from our "Mystery Shopping" project! Had to go from hotels to hotels to rate their service, rooms & even toilets.

Okay, such a slip-shot post. Have to hurry so I can do a little on my Hinduism paper before I run off to meet my group mates @ town for our SQM project! :)

Can't wait for my pay to come! I'm going to be broke soon!
Oh, apparently I earned $xxxx from SPH & F1 last year so I'm being taxed! I can'tbelieve I earned so much from them?! I only worked for them for a few days, amazing! & that's not even counting random jobs. That should mean I actually earn quite a reasonable amount of money a year.
WHERE HAS ALL THE MONEY GONE TO?!

Gotta run! :)

~

2009-11-13T10:26:00.000-08:00

“If I take your hand
and lead you through this heartache
will you dance with me?”

— Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson

Food Implosion

2009-11-09T07:58:00.000-08:00

Today was Food Implosion! :) Woke up earlier & went down to support YC, Crosby, WL & Clarence! Pictures are credits to WL. Okay, I admit I'm not as efficient as her... :(

The mighty 4!

They had to finish 10 apples, 10 muffins, 6 bananas & 4 bottles of water in the shortest time possible. Quite a feat, considering apples are hard to bite, and muffin is just dry and unappetizing?

The four all ready to tackle the food!

Tackling the food

& the winning time of the qualifying rounds, gorging all food items in 7 minutes! :) Must be because they have got sooo many supporters that they did their best. Enhanced with my presence = victory! Must must must compliment WL. SHE CAN REALLY EAT FAST?! I thought I eat pretty fast for a girl already. But I take my hat off to her man.
JAMIE ONG YY CAN YOU PLEASE LEARN FROM HER?!

& that's almost the whole class going down to support! :D

Went to meet Keith for lunch thereafter but was driven to eat at some staircase cause everywhere was soooo packed with people. This week is really a "meet ATS people" week. & I'm officially sick of the Mr Bean pancakes already. Been eating so much of them cause they are so convenient to get. Must find new food to eat. :)

Foreseeing a really busy week ahead- projects, projects, projects. :(
SIGH. (that was a really big sigh)
Can't wait for holidays! Apparently my father & sister are joining me & my mother for the BKK trip! The thing is, they couldn't get the same airline as us so...
me & my mother are flying by Cathay,
my sister by Air India
& my father by Air Asia.

?!?!?!?!?!?!

A little older, a little wiser

2009-11-08T09:09:00.000-08:00

Look at the sky: that is for you. Look at each person's face as you pass on the street: those faces are for you. And the street itself, and the ground under the street, and the ball of fire underneath the ground: all these things are for you. There are as much for you as they are for other people. Remember this when you wake up in the morning and think you have nothing.

-courtkneebird.tumblr

Just yesterday I was talking to Brighton on the phone about how we should all meet up. Spent a wholesome hour talking about ATS & how people have changed & evolved.

Today, I dressed myself up in vibrant colors ready to go to the library to grab some books & dinner thereafter. I barely even reached the MRT station when I got a call from Bright asking me to go down to a friend's funeral.
& so there we were, a mini gathering. Daryl, Jason, Bright- there was even Senky! The last time I saw him was in Primary school?! We used to play catching together but we can't even hold a proper conversation now. I'm such a chatterbox if I can ever run out of things to say it's such a miracle.

People whom I haven't met in eons. Such an irony that we have to meet under such circumstances?
I think I live too much in shell that I always believe that people of my age should still have a long road ahead. I can never imagine myself fighting an illness at such a tender age.

I never knew her well. Just those occasional greetings & awkward smiles.
Today I tell myself to cherish those around me more- which spells being more active in asking my friends out! So Bright, you won't only be seeing me once in 6 months! Shall ask KokdidiKok & Thye out soon too! Then wait patiently for Jerms & Wei to finish their A's & they'll claim their treat from me! I'm glad ATS brought me such great friends.

All these reminds me to be constantly happy.

I'm happy like 95% of the time. I don't see much to be upset about, thankfully.
I like my noisy self even if it's abnormal. I can't imagine not talking, can't imagine awkward silences. I too, like noisy people.

Today, I feel like I grew a little older.

2009-11-08T00:47:00.000-08:00

ANTS IN YOUR PANTS!
URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HYWycl8vR5c

Dance like you've got ants in your pants!

It doesn't take a person who goes out with me everyday to know that I often dance to whatever songs are playing- in shops, school etc. So long as the music has a good beat, it always manages to hype me up! :D & usually whatever flows comes from within- no techniques, no need for glamor. So when I saw the video above I really thought it's exactly like me! I think I always dance like I have ants in my pants! hahaha. Yeah, & many times I would be told to stop cause perhaps I'm an embarrassment? (imagine seeing someone dancing in the middle of the shop, psycho?) But now I feel like someone has sung out my cry! :D

Totally made my day! :)

Okay, gotta get ready to get out! :)

3

2009-11-06T06:05:00.000-08:00

There seems to be a kind of order in the universe... in the movement of the stars and the turning of the Earth and the changing of the seasons. But human life is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own right and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own.

- One Tree Hill

Went down to Tampines after school to meet the 2! Decided to brave the distance for them so that they'll stop digging in the fact that I never travel for them. Sadly, it's 2-1, & I'm the only poor soul living & schooling so far away from them.

Ate so much that day- Ajisen Ramen, Frolicks & thereafter ice-cream!
Why you both make me eat so much I fat already! :(

Went to the Rooftop to slack thereafter.

Jumpshots & dancing at the rooftop were highlights, & I could feel eyes on us.
We were so hysterical we went completely insane after leaving the rooftop. We started screaming our lungs out in the lift down cause we were absolutely sure nobody could hear us anyway. (sounds like Mimi)

Turns out, nothing is ever absolute, & we were greeted with stares of shock & amusement when we reached the ground floor. The same group of guys who witnessed our cam-whoring were also in the lift next to us. They told us they thought Pontianak was in the other lift.
Embrassment x2?

Me & MJ's immediate reaction was to point at Jessica & wag our fingers, while I covered my face with the other hand. Poor Jesstoots, the scapegoat. :D
Comforting to note, I do not live in Tampines or anywhere near that anyway. :)

It was a short night but that's what our plan is! To increase our frequency of meeting, even though the duration may be considerably shorter. Yay so we're meeting again next week!
Happy bananas we are.

Side note here:
I don't only love Jessporks & Mucalucca k Manprit Kaur + Adlin! Don't start a war on FB again!

Lydiaaaaaa

2009-11-01T20:22:00.000-08:00

There's this really cute buyer who added me on MSN too cause she was feeling bored? Then she added me on Facebook cause she was competing with her friend for number of friends.
She even messaged me a rather random message that said "XX was here", & thereafter "I love you!" after I helped her with some phone thing.
Amusing?

Pictures from Austin Hills! :)

Despite waking up at an unearthly hour of 6.30am, we were still rather energized for the trip. :) Actually the 3 of us do look a little alike, don't we?

Reached Austin Hills in the afternoon, & it was sooo pretty! No matter how many photos I tried to take failed to capture the beauty of the place. When do you get to see such clear skies with no looming buildings obstructing it's beauty in Singapore?

To wake up to such a clear view of the golf course & the neat row of dreamy trees was :) :) :)

Leow & Liao! Our parents changed me & my siblings Leow into Liao, & hence we have a different spelling for our surnames. :D

Ate like a monster over there. Spent at least half a thousand (SGD hor) on food there. Of course we, the children don't pay! Priviledged kids.

Leow, Chow, Lim & Wee! :)

At night, me, my brother & my father shared a bed (my sister settled for the floor cause it was too squeezy). We look so scandalous there right?! No, not incest.

The next day was swimming! :) :) :)

Played so many games in the pool- Witch, What is the time Mr Wolf, Hai Dai etc.

The above is us doing Hai Dai pose! Even my father & aunt played Hai Dai with us, which was soooooo hilarious! I should've taken a video of the game.

My father & his mother, which is my grandma. :)

That was our trip! :) Had sooooo much fun!
Jiejie Liao was telling me that next time when we have kids we must organize such trips for us & our children too. Heehee, & then I was thinking that would be great cause I'll have Korkor Liao to pay for the accommodations, & Jiejie Liao paying for all the food! :) Privileged youngest sibling!

New things to look forward to would be:
1. BKK trip with Mumsy Leow on December 11th.
$400 per person for air tickets + accommdation to BKK?!?! I should've been there when my mother bought the package. Who spends $400 to go to BKK?!?! That makes $800 for the two of us. Zomg zomg zomg.

2. Banyan Tree @ Bintan for CNY in Feb!
Exxxxcited!

My sister's keeper

2009-11-01T18:34:00.000-08:00

"Normal, in our house, is like a blanket too short for a bed--sometimes it covers you just fine, and other times it leaves you cold and shaking; and worst of all, you never know which of the two it's going to be."

Jodi Picoult, "My Sister's Keeper"

[SPOILERS AHEAD]

This is one movie that may be considered a contender to Sky of Love in all time "tear jerking" movie list. The opening of the movie was astonishingly impactful & beautiful, & quickly had my tear glands activated. Almost throughout the whole course of the movie I was biting my lower lip to stop myself from trembling, fighting back the tears.

Jodi Picoult always has a way to take on difficult subjects as such, creating melodramatic scenes well crafted to tug hard at reader's heartstrings.
A mother fighting for her daughter that she imminently losing.
A sister fighting for her sister with ferocious love that burns criticisms & fear away.
The dilemma between the conflicting love of the two parties was well presented in the movie, & I really loved the addition of certain scenes that augments each love relationship. (Taylor & Kate's scrapbook)

However, as much praises as I may sing about the movie, there was one major letdown- once the climax was hit, everything went downhill. Rather predictably (if you haven't read the book), the finale scuppers the powerful opening of the movie with Kate's peaceful passing on & an even more forseeable ending with a family vacation at the place Kate had said for them to go. (can't remember the exact location)

What I really loved about the book, was the bitter and seemingly abrupt ending- the sudden twist that is bound to leave every reader momentarily stupefied. It was a brutal twist in which all mourns at the calamitous death of Anna which may seem unnecessary & too harsh on the girl who had already swallowed whatever torment that has befallen on her since birth. Her role of her "sister's keeper" was preserved to her very end- her death fulfilled the purpose of her birth, to be the perfect donor to Kate.

If you were to ask me, however, I would still recommend the movie. Just remember to bring along a box of tissues & buy yourself a eyelid tape in case you're like me- my eyelid flips whenever I cry too hard.

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The above was written that day after I watched the movie. I'm still a bit angst, but not so much so now. I'm back from a good short needed vacation @ Austin Hill's! :)
Will upload pictures @ night! :)

Growing up!

2009-10-30T09:28:00.000-07:00

There’s no such thing as a grown up. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own. But the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. We get bigger, we get taller, we get older, but for the most part, we’re still a bunch of kids running around the playground trying desperately to fit in.

- Grey’s Anatomy

Yay I know I have dozen of pictures to upload! :) & I will do so before embarking to Malaysia! Am rather hyped out about the trip with my cousins! (despite the fact that I haven't packed my bag yet hohoho)

I had my first GEMs lesson today! After all the rah-rah running around school to transfer class last week I finally decided to resign to fate to go for GEMs alone.
Now I'm photographer Liao whose position is threatened by SF & ST who are taking the same module as me. I've always had the habit of carrying my camera around since the good old Cedar days. I mean, you'll never know when the occassion calls for a camera to capture a good memory. And usually no one bothers to bring a camera, so the duty falls on me! :) Although I must admit I might sometimes take eons to upload the pictures, I still think I'm efficient overall.
After my GEMs class today I feel more motivated to take good quality pictures- meaning pictures that has composition and balance, throwing in techniques such as the Triangle, Circles, Negative Space etc.
Zomg, don't I already sound like a professional? :)

Okay time to post up pictures! Am uploading through Photobucket now. I very much prefer Flickr, but I'm not willing to pay $25 to upgrade my account. :(

This was us attempting to do MR tutorial @ Sembawang Starbucks- half priced cakes ftw! :)

& the whole class visiting Raimi!

Then today was shopping day! :)

School, although mundane has been rather fun.
Today, the most classic joke was...

Me: *pointing to my chest* my lungs
ST: huh, lungs are there meh?
VT: If not there then where? Here meh? *points to the butt*
ST: Huh, I don't know leh!

Sent us roaring with laughter. (okay may not sound very funny reading it but trust me anyone would have burst into peals of laughter at the scene)

Then there was this boy @ HK Cafe (Ion) whom we couldn't stop giggling at. (giggling is an understatement, we were hysterical) Cause he was zooming like a rocket around the restaurant, & he had a very innocent & silly smile. Like he would practically smile at anything & everything?! And he's quite small & tiny. & we were sooo curious to know how old he was cause he looks like a 13/14 year old?! So we plucked up our courage to ask him his age.
From then on whenever he darted pass our table he would laugh in such a silly manner we just couldn't contain our laughter.

& today I learned that snail in Chinese can always be wa(1) niu (2).
I also learned that heat stroke is zhong(4) shu(3).

Talking to them increases my Chinese vocabulary! :)

1,2,3, fee, fi, fo!

2009-10-27T05:56:00.000-07:00

Just realized why I can't post my photos through flickr. :( Reached the limit for my pathetic free flickr account! So I'd just have to revert back to uploading through Blogger now, which kinda sucks cause it's not as efficient!

So first & foremost, photos from Saturday after we went to visit Raimi! :)
Me, VT, ST, LY & WL had such a great time talking about everything under the sun. Talked all the way till last train. Girls?!

ShiTian, LiYing, the awesome me, WeiLing & ViTing!

& here are photos from Spooktacular @ Sentosa!
The event isn't as successful as the one @ Night Safari- the ghosts weren't as horrifying. In fact, it very much pales in comparison to NS'. The whole walk at Images of Singapore (haunted house) was spent guessing which is ghost, & which is not.

But it's the company that matters, so no complains! :)
$25 not really worth? But still had fun nonetheless!

Anw, I'm sorry if I'm been MIA-ing.
I promise I'll make up for all the dates missed after I'm back from M'sia?

& I just revamped prettypopsicles! :)
Please, money flow back in?

Memory collages!

2009-10-24T22:47:00.000-07:00

Flickr still cannot work, so here I am uploading tiny little pictures via Blogger. :(
It's just all to prove that I'm essentially efficient, so that I'll get compliments raining down on me again. (Right Raimi?)

So here are the pictures! :) I promise tonight I'll upload all photos into Facebook. :) Including the ones from yesterday! Cause I'm efficient like that, yo!

First up, some random day at Holland Village after school!

Then sending off YY, KK, Angie & YP off @ the airport!

& finally, ST's birthday!

Yeah, I know they look pathetic in collages. But that's because there's like 300 over photos, I'll puke if I even try posting them altogether. :D

That's all for now folks! Am going out for lunch & all now! :)
First day not meeting my classmates, having met them for 9 days in a row! :D

Nerdasaurus

2009-10-22T08:24:00.000-07:00

This semester is going to be different! Lydia Liao is going to metamorphose into a nerdasaurus! You all shall be my witnesses, and I am sure that my final grades will attest my hard work and determination! Although I say this practically every new semester, I can just feel that this semester is just oddly different. I shall remain optimistic, keep my head up & my morale flying high. :)

A dozen apologies to all whom I owe a whole pile of pictures!
I actually did the collages & uploaded them into flickr already, but flickr's not working currently!

Today!

2009-10-14T11:18:00.000-07:00

Today was definitely a much better day than yesterday, & therefore I have higher expectations for tomorrow! If every 'tomorrow' is a better day than every 'yesterday', I'm sure I'll die a super happy woman! :)

Met up with VT & ST to head to town after being abandoned by Crosby Teo & Chng Yee Chuan. :( I anticipated a great day ahead but oh well, things always happen... because of irritating people. HAHAHA! (eh YC +10 points to me k!) *smiles bright bright*
So the day was spent playing cards + loads of talk. I really wonder how we never run out of things to say?

Then went down to AMK to meet the two who ps-ed me. Thankfully I'm really forgiving by nature? So I spared them an earful & even let them enjoy my wonderful company. :)
It's good to have friends living within walking distance. Ah~ No worries about missing the last bus & expensive cab fares.

@ some random void deck, we decided to take pictures!!

Okay, that's all for now I'm really tired. It's 3 & I have to wake up at 11 to go over to Jessipork's house to attempt cooking lunch. (because according to her she has great culinary skills)
Wheeeee!

Stayover @ Jessica's tomorrow! :)

Mistakes.

2009-10-12T09:44:00.000-07:00

On more occasions than not when you trip over a stumbling block you may be able to swiftly regain your balance and retain composure to carry on the walk.
But there are times when things are seemingly deliberately out to watch your downfall- you trip over the smallest obstacles in the path to find yourself falling flat in the face. Scars, scabs and the puss that oozes out of the wound are evidence of the abashment that scorns.

But you always have to tear down what I've concealed to impeach me, to make me so self-reproaching. We all make mistakes, I probably just made more than ordinary.

I have learnt that people can't just "start afresh" because the past keeps catching up & tearing down whatever has been built.
I hate having troubles. I don't like spending precious time being upset.

Oh well, I shall not sound like too much of a pessimist. Trust me, I wrote a whole lot more, I just don't wanna sound too angry with the world & such.

As I always say,
"Tomorrow will always be a better day"

Anyway, I felt an obligation to post this:

Heehee! I know I'm ego but that makes me happy so I don't care! *hops around*
My tummy is starting to bulge out already! *gasps* 120 sit-ups, 120 sit-ups!
I told myself I won't have supper anymore, that I will not eat after 10pm cause at night I'm a couch potato who doesn't even move an inch. But when I took a bus past the prata shop I just couldn't curb my temptation.

2 pratas + a little of YC's thosai (which the uncle says it's not toh-SAI like dung, but toh-SEH) & a cup of teh tarik.
I cannot resist good food. :(
Why I like that?

Cause I am Lydia Liao the greedy!

SF's Birthday!

2009-10-10T10:02:00.000-07:00

Today was SF's birthday celebration! :)
Despite the fact that she insisted that there wasn't enough food, she persistently gorged us such that we were all so bloated!

We were the earliest of her friends to reach! :) So we slacked by the pool playing cards & talking while waiting for the almighty YY to make her grand appearance.

So while waiting for everything to fall in place...

Then the birthday girl came along with a BORROWED SLR to show off. Make me take pictures of her trying to act pro, when the true fact was she couldn't operate it?!

Still wanna act.

STILL ACTING.

ST & ST! :)

SF & YY! :)

SF & VT!

SF & Lydia (THE GREAT)! :)

SF's birthday cake was so cutie pwetty! Full of hearts, with two ballerinas dancing on the cake. It's agar-agar btw, the first time I'm eating a cake like such.

Then there was the party poppers which I'm rather afraid of. Don't like the loud bang sound it makes. Really deafening, grrr. But the effect I caught on my camera quite good right! The streams were floating down gracefully & I managed to capture it! Wheee!

Group picture of us with the pretty cake & SF!

Tadah~ the card we did for SF! It's really big, and painstakingly made with loads of love! We took quite a long time planning how to do the card, and although it looks like a card easily made within an hour, we spent HOURS on it!

SF happy zappy with the card HEEHEE!

Group pictures!

That spells my day, & free dinner! Woohoo~
Really felt like a queen today cause SF the host was so good, prompt in serving us food & drinks & such. But it's just for this ONCE (must emphasize ONCE) Hahahah.

Next week is the last week of my short-briefed holidays!
I'm gonna say hello to school soon, & goodbye to late nights.

CRAMPS, CAN YOU JUST GO AWAY?!
I HATE, I HATE, I HATE CRAMPS.
I love almost everything about being a girl, but why must I have cramps?! GRRRR.

Halloween Horrors @ NS!

2009-10-09T11:02:00.000-07:00

Say I'm efficient, say I'm efficient, say I'm efficient!

"You're efficient!"

Yay, & for that, here are pictures we took @ Night Safari just a few hours ago! :)
Still haven't gotten over the excitement! It was exhilarating fun, with great company accompanied by super scary "ghosts".

Me, Clar, ST, VT & KK went early to secure tickets, cause we thought there would be a crowd. But apparently not, I think we were too kiasu we were right there when the ticketing counter started its operations. & I had such a hard time contemplating whether I should stick with them for Halloween Horrors or go to CY's birthday celebration. When I finally made my choice to stay I spent half minute stricken with regret. Why am I always so PS queen?! Zomg.

But anyhow, I made the right choice (I think)
Cause I had a whooping time at Night Safari! :) The animals were interesting & sooo *squeals* cute! & the ghosts were really scary & they really managed to freak me out really badly until I decided that they were merely humans who are at work. :) So proud of myself, I even managed to stare back straight into their eyes when they were trying to scare me. Sorry, wrong target! I'm not Vi Ting!

Below are some of the photos we took, until my camera betrayed me & gave in. I brought 2 batteries which I thought I charged, but apparently not. But still, I managed to get 50 photos! :) & I'm just picking from the lot cause there are some blurred, some badly taken (must be KK).

Ok the following one was one of the scariest: THE BLOODY WITCH!
Zomg, she just keeps staring at you, & her eyes are really freaky! Then she'll just run after you & chase you around. She's so convincing a witch. :D

This is @ the Z-bar cafe!

& the trail that left me mortified.

Haha, just being sadistic. Some couple sitting behind us being taunted by Snow White's stepmother. Heehee.

Anyhow, 2 thumbs up for the Halloween Horror! I'm sorry if this contains any spoilers for those who are going. But I guarantee a good time (with the right company?) despite the huge hole it burnt in my pocket- $35!!! :(

Okay, that's all for today I'm really drained screaming & shouting.
Need to head to bed soon so I can wake up for SF's birthday party tmr!

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Vanishing Acts

2009-10-09T00:05:00.000-07:00

My problem is with anybody who just vanishes and then waltzes back in and expects to be instantly forgiven.

— Peyton Sawyer (One Tree Hill)

Creating memories

2009-10-06T10:41:00.000-07:00

Miss those after O's days when we always had time for each other. Wholesome 6 months of holidays for us poly kids. When will we ever in our lifetime have so much time for each other again? Not to mention fitting in our new friends and such.

I'm always looking at past photos nowadays.
Must create more memories for me to look at next time.

Sleepover lehxz, ohyabehyasooom! Mujia plan k? *big wide smiley*

Earth to Mars

2009-10-05T10:30:00.000-07:00

Hello earthlings! Been quite some time since I've been in this space of mine cause there's simply no time! (sound like a busy woman but no just busy playing) Been a long time since I brought my Olympus baby out too.

I like to plan my week a week before so I can squeeze in the maximum activities possible. & I've failed to have some 'me time' this entire holidays! 'Me time' = a day at home reading books, watching television, finding new scores for the piano and unraveling stuff hidden in my cupboards. I always like to ransack my own space cause I always find something really interesting like letters that contain juicy stuffs I've long forgotten. I remember me & Joanne used to write to each other EVERYDAY. And I mean EVERYDAY. Zomg, we were damn mad?! We meet each other EVERYDAY in school, outside of school, during CCAs, during tuition. & we talk on the phone EVERYDAY too. Yet we still spent our free time away from each other writing letters to each other. Not mad at all?

Talking about that makes me miss her. I always thought we would be forever.

That aside, today we celebrated J for Jonny's birthday! :)
WOW (World of Warcraft) is ruining my life, seriously. All they talk about is WOW!!! All about raids, gearing up and dueling. Zomg, I can't get them to stop talking about WOW for more than 5 minutes. The whole bus ride with the two Js from AMK to J's house was filled with WOW, and only WOW. (hahaha Js are so common every other person has a name starting with J)
My sons & daughters will not have names starting with a J!
I'm thinking of Miguel, Septhir, LeRoy, Lovelle, Willow etc. I used to love Miguel alot but not after I named one of my monkey-like pokemon as Miguel. Cause whenever I think of Miguel now a monkey appears. And I don't want my son to turn out like a monkey! OH NO!

Okay, why am I digressing?

So the party was listening to loads about WOW (seriously cant stop ranting) & playing bear! Too much food resulted in throwing a whole box of chicken wings. THROW LEH. Waste.

Then, the angel face me asked my sister to send me & J (again) home! Maybe I should start spelling out full names cause so many Js very confusing? But hahaha I like it that way!

I don't know how it's supposed to feel, but seeing my own sister drive feels immensely weird. I mean I've grown up with her, & I NEVER thought she'd be cut out to drive. She screams & squeals at every single thing, I can't imagine her thinking on her feet and just being calm & composed? But indeed she's not very- she keeps saying other drivers are ding dong.

A very long journey but we made it home safe & sound! Look at my sister's parking though. (haha jiejie don't kill me muacks)

That was her tenth attempt to park already. I mean at least she can park hor SHUFEN?!

Why am I playing double kiam here, haha. Today I just feel like typing alot cause my fingers very long never workout already must keep my fingers slim! Fingers big & round not nice when wear rings. Must make my fingers workout so I can dorn on a nice 8 carat wedding ring! *bling bling* Aiya I full of crap today must be crazy.

Farewell friends from Mars!

2009-09-29T12:01:00.000-07:00

The best moments in reading are when you come across something- a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things- that you'd thought special, particular to you. And here it is, set down by someone else, a person you have never met, maybe even someone long dead. And it's as if a hand has come out, and taken yours.
- The History Boys

Jamie: Please don’t pretend like you know me, ok?
Landon: But I do, I do. We’ve had all the same classes in the same school since kindergarten. Why you’re Jamie Sullivan. You sit at lunch table 7. Which isn’t exactly the reject table, but is definitely in self exile territory. You have exactly one sweater. You like to look at your feet when you walk. Oh, oh, and yeah, for fun, you like to tutor on weekends and hang out with the cool kids from “Stars and Planets.” Now how does that sound?
Jamie: Thoroughly predictable, nothing I haven’t heard before.
Landon: You don’t care what people think about you?
Jamie: No.

Because I was too bored, having played almost 2 hours of Sims & finished watching all the current episodes of Gossip Girls,
I re watched A Walk to Remember (for like the fifth time)
Still the show that's so tear-jerking and painfully sweet. Still an old favorite.

Some things in life just come at a total twist of fate, at the most unexpected moment. You won't know truly when you've lost one or gained another. You can't decipher smiles of deceit or words mounting to hills of lies. You can't figure out what was so painful then could be a point of saving grace for yourself.
Life's like that- sometimes the bitter truth sets in & it's like splashing icy cold water on your face- it's harsh awakening. What could have seemed perfect, with the path crystal clear can suddenly be marred with the mud and stones to block the only way forward. It's no use clinging on to a situation where there's no point in salvaging, because things are damaged beyond repair. You can only just fly forward.
There's no "yesterday" in the Eskimo language.

I hope you get what I'm saying?
Be here for you. :)

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Work, work, work!
$, $, $!
Yay, yay, yay!